Please Don’t Judge Me by Eli Oko

 

We may have parked up, stopped and spoken for a bit

We got closer than you think

He leant over for a kiss

My mind sobered from the wish

I guess I was left hoping for a mint

But then my eyes opened for a bit

Don’t judge me

I’ve been lost most times before

Made choices I won’t ignore

Just a moment, let me hold this as I’m falling to the floor

Falling in deep, this isn’t poker anymore

Its real life, and I’m right, I can’t control the feelings core

So don’t judge me

I told him parts of all my past

And left the target for the darts

He’s only 180 away from the questions he hasn’t asked

So if it’s the future he will chance

Then I’ll walk the narrow path but at the worst I kept the worst

For a moment left to clasp

Please don’t judge me

I can’t tell the world I’ve changed,

My mind just isn’t the same

I’ve missed warm hands and soft touches

I’ve missed the way they say my name

Hey Liz….

I think the truth really is this

I’m not in this for the mist

I see clearer days ahead and so I hold tightly with clenched fists

It’s this…

I think I like the way I’m missed and then the text that he will give

I see the deepest love in his eyes when he says that I’m all his

It’s this…

Don’t judge me

Imagine what they’ll think

Only months between the things

I was before and I am now but yet the bridges gap is big

Don’t judge me

I’d hate to lie another time

I guess they’ll read it in my lines

And things I’ll never say I think they’ll see it in my eyes

And they’ll judge me

But I’ll find the reasons later

For the answer being wait more

Because I telling him I’m ready but my hearts never been fainter

As the faded colours fade, I’m all down for something greater

It’s just me

I’m to use to saying hi,

I’ve no self-control over myself and so I’m used to passing time

It’s the thoughts that are sublime

And each word that hits the hearts I see him die a bit inside

But he won’t judge me

He says it’s not his will or place

And that only God sees past my face

But he can see it in my eyes that I’ve turnt another page

And as time fly’s it will prove I’m freed from this sinful cage

I’m not an enthusiast full of rage

I’m just a dreamer in a race

Lost in translation

I’m the case

Learning to be tamed

Hurting all the same

But I’m working to be named

Pioneer in all my gains

Knees cut and grazed

Just something I can’t wave

So I’ll keep striving for the aim

To make him proud once again

No shame

I’ve been drained

All the poison I contained

Runs the gutters near the toughest terrain you’ve ever seen in days

And that’s all I’ve seen…

So don’t judge me.