May 2017 Writing Challenge

24 Reflective Questions

This year my writing challenge made me dig a little deeper. This is honest and revealing! 

 

  1. Something  I thought about a lot as a child was…

 

I used to think about many random things but since a young age I was fascinated with technology and would try to predict the advances that may be in the near future. I saw oyster cards and contactless debit cards, QR codes and the power of video and image based social media sites like Snapchat and Periscope, before they even became a thing. I used to come up with business ideas and record them on my laptop, I still have hundreds of clips of me talking about my business ideas and thoughts on the Tech industry. I wish I had taken myself more seriously back then.

 

 

2. One thing I’ve always wished for is…

 

To be able to wake up generally and love my routine. I always wanted to be working for myself so that I could have flexibility in my time and freedom of choice for the projects I worked on. Aside from that I really wanted a Green Kawasaki motorbike too, whether it was a mini motor or a real beast.

 

3. If I received £10,000 that I HAD to spend on myself, I would..

 

Put most towards decorating my new house. It’s a need but also something I genuinely would love to be able to finance myself  which will make me happy and of course my mum. If I had to think selfishly though and only benefit myself I would go clothes shopping and buy a load of gadgets. I would love to have the Samsung Gear s3.

 

4. One thing I know I need to work on is…

 

My focus. I get easily distracted from my goals and motives. I have to write down my thoughts and expectations for myself regularly otherwise I gradually side-track. I think if I was more focused on my goals I would be happier. Having these goals make me happy, but failing to achieve them make me sad – I’d like to close that gap within my emotions and I think ‘focus’ can do just that!

 

5. I’m most proud that I…

 

Have relied on power beyond me to be in the position that I am with regards to work and personal goals. It has taken a load of loss to gain the blessings that are before me and I am proud that I let things plan out. Sometimes we can’t see the full picture, we just have to trust that if we listen to the voice saying “This is the way, walk in it” we will be rewarded. A hard lesson, but I have seen it work many times in my experiences, especially over the last year.

 

6. In the next year, I really want to…

 

Learn Spanish. I have been trying to learn for nearly 7 years, but I haven’t really set my mind to it. This year however my circumstances have allowed for me to make it more of a priority. Thankfully, I now have help too and so I think there is a good chance I’ll get there. Although it has always been my goal, I have never been as optimistic as I am now.

 

7. If I could ask any person just one thing, it would be ____ and I would ask…

 

Daniel Lorick. I’ll explain, this was one of my best friends. I felt so much respect from him and I’ll be honest I removed him from my life at a time where I was very confused. I thought I was making a mature decision but rather it was out of impulse and frustration because other areas in my life was not going to plan. I knew he respected me and so therefore would comply with my wishes. That was my biggest mistake. I took for granted a very special relationship I had built and I’d like to thank him. If I could tell him how appreciative I am of him it would make me slightly happier with the person I have become. He guided me emotionally and shaped me as a writer. He expressed his confidence in me right from the beginning and for that I owe him so much. Wherever he is now, whatever he is doing, I hope he is truly happy…. He deserves it. It has been 8 years and I am still especially fond of him.

 

 

8. A silver lining in a not so good situation that happened recently is…

 

My mothers illness has progressed and a number of concerns have now become the root of her problems. However although this has resulted to me having to increase my care for her, it has also brought us closer together. It has also revealed how many care, for us love us and are supporting us each step of this very trying experience. We have got such great people in our lives, truly a blessing from God and I can not be more grateful for them. I don’t believe I would have been able to notice their love if it wasn’t for this change in circumstance, and therefore would say change has been the silver lining to our grey cloud.

 

 

9. The skill I’ve always wanted to have is…

 

To be multilingual. If I could chose 5 languages to learn over night I would choose – Spanish, Kweyol, Danish, French and Russian. Either that or be able to sing!

 

 

10. A sentence that stopped me in my tracks and changed my outlook was…

 

Something that I heard in a morning worship video on tv.jw.org

“We kneel before God so that we may stand erect to face our challenges”.

This reminds me that my strength comes from the provider of peace and comfort. With that strength, we face challenges – firm.

 

11. The ways I’ve grown over the past 5 years are…

 

Hmm…

  • My writing
  • My positive outlooks in life
  • The quality of my friends and association
  • My spiritual knowledge
  • My love for spiritual things
  • My relationships with others

Likely many more but I can’t think, generally my summary is that it hasn’t been 5 years of physical growth, it has been all about mental, spiritual and emotional growth.

 

 

12. Something I’d like to achieve one day is…

 

Help someone to progress to baptism. I study with pre-teens currently and so seeing their spiritual progress has been such a blessing. It is rewarding in so many ways and equally challenging but I have learned that all I am doing is watering… Jehovah makes it grow.

 

13. The best bit of advice I could give to a younger me is…

 

The goals you have will shape you. Do not aspire to be rich physically, be rich spiritually and then you will have true happiness. Some things look impossible, that’s because you are looking through your eyes, look at things from Jehovah’s perspective and then they all suddenly become attainable. The only mistake you can make is not getting up… every time you fall, get up. As quickly as possible.

 

14. A book that I always re-read is ____ , because…

 

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte. This book helps me create word pictures in my mind. I truly imagine every scene as if I have been there. It inspires a number of my poems and as a writer I appreciate how elegant and specific Charlotte Bronte is. Beautiful writing.  

 

 

15. One thing I’ll never regret is ____, because…

 

Not giving up. Because that would be quitting, and I am not a quitter.

 

16. The quality I admire most in others is…

 

The ability to be selfless. I know some really generous individuals and they have taught me to give more. I try to make at least one person smile each day. A genuine smile, one that is from the heart. I love to see a genuine smile, if that is all I can do, I’ll be happy.

 

17. If I could be a go-to person for anything, it would be…

 

I hope I could provide comfort. Just to be able to say the right things at the right time to help them to feel better about themselves or a situation they are in. If someone thought “I’d like to be comforted today, let me go see Liz”… I would be over the moon. The ultimate source of comfort is God but I’d like to use the comfort that he has shown me to be able to comfort others.

 

18. If I could go to any point in the past or future, I would…

 

Go to my past and not answer the phone, I would do things so much differently. You see a year ago today I wrote a message to someone declaring all the reasons why I thought we could work. Now, a year later I realise those were the reasons why I wanted to make it work, not necessarily things that would make it work. And so 2 days prior I could have hurt a little less if I never answered my phone, but rather recognised the end of something great and just accepted it. I guess you live and you learn.

 

19. The thing that I’m most afraid to tell people is…

 

I am not okay today. I fear showing weakness because in the past it has been used against me. In the past I have been told I am a risk, I am a liability and that I am a chance. That is because they knew I was weak. However, today I am weak, but my strength is not what I rely on anyway – so therefore it does not determine my outcome. I do not become my weakness. I fight through it and I am not a risk, I am not a chance, and I will never allow another person to tell me that I am, ever again. I am not okay today, but that doesn’t determine me, my personality, or even tomorrow, it’s okay not to be okay. 

 

 

20. The thing that I’m most thankful for is…

 

My love for research. My love for studying has helped me find answers to the questions I have, the doubts that echo in my mind and the worries and fears I have nurtured for so many years. Finally I can study, I can research and I can have an answer to it all. I no longer am lost. I am so thankful for this.

 

21. When people first meet me, I hope they feel…

 

Welcome. I like to make people feel valuable and important. I want them to feel precious and loved. If I can leave any impression on someone when I first meet them I want them to feel welcomed and at ease.

 

22. Something that I’d love to do today (that I can easily do!) is…

 

Study. There is something I particularly want to study and I have been thinking about it for the last few days. I want to improve my communication with my best friend. There is a way to do this and I feel like I am getting lazy. That is what I want to do, and what I will do. I promise. Aside from that I really need to change my bed sheets, I’ll do that also 🙂

 

 

23. The roles that love and affection play in my life is…

 

Love – it determines how much I give and how much I allow myself to take.

Affection – allows me to express to those who I care about, exactly how much they mean to me.

They play very important roles in friendships and relationships. I feel it to be so crucial that with every person I interact with I think to myself “how can I show them love, and how can I show them affection”. I use to struggle to hug people or compliment people, I was socially awkward, yet now I have people in my life that deserve that validation and I feel privileged to be able to offer it.

 

 

25. My life story in as much detail as possible within 4 minutes of typing is…

 

I never truly appreciated my inheritance, but as time went on and my conscience began to form, I started to realise what was expected from me. I blocked out others in my life who could have served as grand examples to me, because I thought that I had to just live life independently, that no one rule fits for all. In fact it was my biggest mistake and thinking I could correct things alone was evidence that I couldn’t. Not before long did I find myself sitting with experiences in life I could never share, I could never happily recall and bring to heart without my eyes watering and a lump of sand in my throat. My story was a disaster and I thought it was too late. But then I started to surround myself with smarter people, people smarter than me. People who had used the rule and applI’d it in different circumstances in their lives. They saw the full power of the rule, learning and teaching that it in fact “becomes all things”. Then I understood, finally I knew how I could possibly make a better future, and write new parts to my story that I could be proud of. And ever since, I have been doing just that. TIME UP.

 

 

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